Alannah's poem - Dear Samantha...

Dear Samantha

If I disobey anything you tell me to do,

If I really swallow the food I chew

I must stick my finger down my throat again, and all the food must come up despite all the pain 

You have become my only true friend 

I fear one day our relationship may end 

But I know your here for a while so I hide our relationship behind a smile 

I hate you because you are taking over me. But I love you because you are making me the girl I want to be 

Why do I love you when all you do is put me down ? Making me starve until I fit into the smallest gown 

With the loss of each pound I'm closer to my goal with your help I'll make this broken girl whole 

Filled with fear in every bite I take 

My plan will be ruined with just a bite of that cake 

Counting calories and fearing how much I weigh.

I am beginning to learn your hear to stay 

My reflection has become something I fear, while wiping away each tear

The pains in my stomach never seem to go away 

It rumbles with hunger while in bed I lay

Every little bit of food I take in 

Must come back up to make me thin.